I have been counseled by many not to share my personal feelings when I am being harassed by the VA and because of their ability to retaliate at any time. But while I was standing in line at the Police Station waiting for my third incident report because of the VA. I came home and sat down petted my new Dog, gave my wife a snack and just became ANGRY! My mind went back to that day so long ago, as I do hundreds of times at night. I ask my self what did I do that was wrong? I responded like I was told to do, yet that same system didn't do what they were supposed to do. Where was my back up as I have been the back up for so many times when a situation went wrong. I was even accused of being old fashion because I would be the first to respond in order to prevent the Female Nurses from getting hurt. I think back to the minute just before September 5th at 4PM and 4 minutes. In that split second I went from being a healthy middle aged man who just lost 135 pounds, stopped smoking and was no longer a diabetic and came off of 7 medications. Now while standing in line for the third time at the police station I knew there was no chance of me seeing Justice. I also knew I would never be healthy again, I have regained all 135 pounds and more, not only that, I went back on the 7 meds but added 3 more. My physical wounds will never heal a matter of fact will get worse as I grow older. The nightmares are even worse. Now why write this and post it, remember please that 22 Veterans kill themselves every day, and although my situation is different by being an Employee BUT BUT these BASTARDS are just as cruel and corrupt to those Veterans, as they are to the Employees who are treated no differently when they get hurt/report problems especially if they are Whistle Blowers. So if one person someday ever reads my stories and actually says enough is enough and does something for the Veterans and the Employees and me.